Posted: Aug. 17th 2008, Sun at 7:49 pm    142 words in post

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It’s been almost a month… I lost many stories and can’t tell any… Many things happened and it’s too private for me just to spoil it in the world wide web. I’ve been wasting my time on those books and school works. QT passed by and results were given. I was the one who’s wrong on choosing those choices. Many problems pass… I lost myself, I lost a friend and I lost special people. I don’t know what happened I thought everything was perfectly flowing… I hate myself on looking too much at the positive side… Hai… But seriously I’m really happy… I never felt this before… Happy! Yeah! BTW, I love the non-class nonstop… hahaha!!! We have a free day this Friday because of the most numbered donors in Blood Letting[per batch]… Hehehe… Bye guys! I miss you so much!

MWAHH! alyssa, Christel, isha, Clarisa, Sandra, Keiyt

 Posted: Jul. 26th 2008, Sat at 10:41 am    259 words in post

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I was broken down into pieces… For some reason, the sense of fighting to defend myself was gone. Words were thrown on me with the mere fact that it isn’t right at all. We have all these opinions but I guess we need to consider many aspects on those conditions. I have the right to speak yet I were a mute who can’t spoke a word. I can’t forget what she had said. It’s just like inserting needles in my heart. I can’t tell the whole story… I can’t… I am a 15 year old battling for right… For what I know was right. But again, I didn’t spoke a word as she throw those words. I was frozen. I can’t accept what she had told me. Some part of it was right but not considering my rights, our rights made it wrong. This is to prove that even though I defend myself or not, age really has a great effect on knowing what is right. Even the elders was wrong they have this pride who’ll make all of it right.

That is the reason why I lost myself. The reason why I have many questions running through my mind. I was afraid really afraid for the first time in my life. I wasn’t able to defend myself for the main reason that if I’ll speak it will get worse and some innocent earthlings will be a part of this battle… What is really right or who is right. I didn’t fight not to protect myself but to protect others.

MWAHH! Christel, Danielle, Fia, Rachel, Bernadeth, pam, Yesha, Jennie, Sandra, Jhoice, Eka*Mika, isha, Sheryl, Keiyt

 Posted: Jul. 18th 2008, Fri at 8:22 pm    131 words in post

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I promised to tell the reason behind that psycho test… So here it is, there’s a paper with 4 columns and many rows in which we need to rate the given characteristic from 4 as the highest and 1 as the lowest. Got the 1st column as the highest, leaving the second column 1 point behind so it means that am a better person now… I’m a non-competitive, sociable person who is fond on comforting others and giving advice at the same time we are sensitive. We are stick-to-one in which we can’t balance our time… AND THAT IS SO TRUE…

I want to serve God! I want to love him fully and do all his words. Next time na lang… Dahil kasi sa seminar namin eh tsaka sa talk nun worship… Napagisipan ko na…

MWAHH! Danielle, Nicca, Rachel

 Posted: Jul. 15th 2008, Tue at 9:39 pm    210 words in post

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We have lots of quizzes and I prefer to sleep. Hahaha… That’s what I did yesterday after I arrived home, I ate for dinner and go to sleep. Actually, I planned to wake up around 9 pm but unfortunately I didn’t… I had a good night sleep yesterday! Wipeee!!! Luckily we have uhmmm… Kinda easy quiz? Hahaha… Let’s hope that I’ll pass! Waaah!!! I’m so lazy! Grrr… I hate myself for being like this even if I push myself on studying I end up with laziness… Hai. I’m now a 3rd year student and still I’m like this… Hahahaha… Whaaat!!!

As you can see, instead of studying am online and very active to the chatting world except here because I really can’t manage to visit each site. ANG DAMI KAYA!!! Di ko na kaya bumisita ng more than 70 sites! Dami ko kaya ginagawa… Kaso tamad lang talaga ako… Kung kelan patapos na ang araw dun lang gumagawa… Hahaha… Sana sumipag na ko!!!

Dami ako quiz tom… natatamad nga lang ako… Bala na… haha… Inaantok na ko… O eto nanaman ako… hahahaha… Just a while ago, in our CCF class we had a psychology test… I’m a grape person in which it is true… I’ll share it maybe some other time… Bye!

MWAHH! karmi, Keiyt

 Posted: Jul. 12th 2008, Sat at 6:39 am    281 words in post

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I just don’t know how to deal with many things… I want to learn but I’m lazy, I want to be sporty but my body is not fit and lastly I want to be happy but nevertheless I can’t be. Just yesterday, we had our physical fitness test… I got the highest because I am forcing myself to. As the last goes, I wasn’t able to perform it right because I felt dizzy. Then all of my body got numb they thought I fainted but I didn’t I just can’t move all of my body even the eyelids of my eyes. Is it my fault to have a weak body? I’m trying so hard to get rid of those x’s grades in P.E. I always push myself to the limit just to perform that given task. That’s me super dedicated when I really want to.

It is our 9th monthsary yesterday… And it is his birthday today. I am not happy. I’m trap in a relationship in w/c I am the only one who’s working… I am not happy. I am not. But I still manage to stay. I don’t know there’s a part of me who wants to hold on. He’s hurting me everyday… I’m bleeding inside but I don’t want to react because he never listens. I don’t know if I’m experiencing love… The love am talking about on my last entry… As for now, I’ll move on even though we are still together I just want to prevent the pain. I just want to prevent the wrong choice.. I need to think this time w/o his permission.

MWAHH! Eka*Mika, Tine, Rachel, Lissie, Aisha, Sheryl, Danielle, Christel, dee